Well let me try to make it short. Well recently since this year 2019 I found out I was pregnant and I had an abortion on July the 20th. Yes I went through it all the pain and emotional. Since then here and there I’ve been depressed. Yes it’s been tuff haven’t had that support with the person I was with. So now it’s October. My cousin found out she was pregnant in September and she told me. Yes I am happy for her most definitely. But these pass weeks I feel jealous and angry at myself because I could of kept my baby. And it seems like my cousin is throwing it in my face to make me feel bad of what i did. Oh and by the way yes I told her I was pregnant at that time and I decided to do my decision to get an abortion, I wasn’t ready to be a mom. She was kinda supportive to me but not all the way 100 percent. So now I feel like she’s doing things and is being extra sometimes. I am happy for her I really am no doubt that’s her 1st child. Hell i was pregnant with my 1st child but I had did the abortion. I am still going through it I have my happy days and I have my sad days when I am crying. I just don’t know what to do anymore. like I said I am happy for my cousin I just feel she is doing to much and trying to make me feel bad about what I did. 😩 . She would say stuff like I couldn’t do abortion here and there. Like it makes me feel less then I am as a woman. I’ve been having nightmares these pass few days and just been keeping to myself lately and don’t want to be bothered sometimes. I just don’t know what to do. Hell i am scared to have sex again or get pregnant again. But this what I’ve been feeling these pass days lately. Please don’t judge me or write any negativity.