Got my induction date 😬🎃 over worrying?? *update

40 weeks and 4 days, induction in 6 days!!

Went to the hospital today, had my ultrasound babe is roughly 9 pounds 😭 heart beat good, placenta good, fluid good

Then went to see the doctor, not been my favourite of doctors but shes a professional so I haven't judged until today, told her about my swelling feet / legs / arms / lips, how sometimes it's only my right leg and she just looked at me then started writing in my notes, silence from there, THEN i had a 5 minute silent stand off with her over refusing a second sweep

The first time I refused she smiled and said but it will help, I politely declined.

The second time she said well it's the only way you're going to go into labour, again I politely declined and said it wasnt for me - at this point her face dropped and we had our 5 minute silent stare off (which was incredibly uncomfortable as I have Autism but I was NOT being bullied into it, aspecially when I've been inappropriately touched as a child and the whole thing just makes me nauseous)

She then tried a third time to coax me into having it done, this time I said no, I appreciate and understand it will help but no thank you.

She then went back to her big smile and started writing in my notes.

Did my pee sample for the hospital midwife, she came and told me I have a trace of infection showing (I've had trace protein which stopped and trace sugar which I assume isnt there anymore but haven't been told) and that they're sending it off today for testing

Asked her if she'd go over my notes with me because I didn't want to seem stupid but I didnt feel comfortable with how the doctor talked me through induction (she simply didn't) midwife was lovely but more of a "you'll be fine most women worry" than actually going over my notes / medical talk and gave me a leaflet..

Got home to check my booklet to see what the doctors wrote as it's my last appointment until induction and it literally says: attended ANC following graph scan.

Nothing about swelling, nothing about infection detected, nothing about anything 😣 which all my other notes have had these bits included... so I'm abit ?

I know in being overly sensitive, I'm a FTM and this stuff is scary, I've never had the need to be in hospital, I've never had swelling and floaters and my body be like this so ofcourse I'm going to be aware, I'm actually doing really well not freaking out but gosh do I feel like I'm being brushed under the carpet....

I'm holding onto the fact that I'm fine and my birth will be fine, I keep getting told to keep an eye on my symptoms but everytime I mention them they fall on deaf ears 😔 but babe is healthy and I'm surviving so I should be thankful

Sorry ladies, needed to expel the head worry.

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6 days over due, 4 days before induction JUST started losing my mucus plug 😬 come on lady!