Okay y’all. This is going to be kinda long. Just heads up.

My husband and I have been married for 2 years, we have been together for a total of 4 years. We are both young (21) well when we moved in together I was sick and he would work for all the bills and everything needed and he’d take out the trash. And since I couldn’t work I stayed home and cleaned the house and did everything else. Cooked, laundry, etc. well that was a while ago about a year and a half ago. Well then I got better and got a job. But he’d still just only take out the trash. He’d leave his mess around the house he’d never help with anything else. And when I’d ask he’d say “well I work labor jobs and you work at a vet clinic it’s easy. You can take care of the house you’re not hurting” then he and I got a job at a prison TOGETHER and we were doing THE SAME THING. And even then “I still work harder than you, I’m trying to become Sargent, and you’re just an officer” then I got pregnant and I had to leave the prison and then I miscarried. Well I got a different job working at a home with 6 mentally ill people. And I would work 12 hour night shifts 10-10 sometimes longer. And I was still expected to come home and do everything. So finally I exploded. And told him it wasn’t fair this isn’t a partnership, that this isn’t the marriage I want. Well he promised he’d change and help out. Well now I’m 16 weeks pregnant again I don’t have a job because I got injured and could do what the job required, I have a tore ligament in my wrist and something else that after I have baby I’ll have to have surgery on. I’m in pain but I can only take Tylenol. But still I’m cooking I’m cleaning I’m doing the dishes I’m doing laundry and doing everything. I’m in a splint for my wrist but I can’t rest my wrist because I have no help. And I didn’t add but when we were together in the first year we had a huge fight and he went and slept with someone who was a female to make trans, they still had the female anatomy but was just starting testosterone, and when we got back together the next day he didn’t tell me anything. They still talked for 3 more days I found out after a date he went to shower and left out his phone. I looked and saw their messages and they were talking about hooking up again. I called him out I asked if he was bi or gay and he said no. I forgave him. I can’t stop thinking about it. But now with everything else I’m having anxiety attacks and I cry all the time. He knows something is wrong but I don’t want to fight. I haven’t told him I’m still hurt over him sleeping with that person. I feel so alone... and this is the only place I can go to, to talk about it.... am I wrong? Should I just get over it..

I’m sorry for the long post. If you read it thank you. I just needed to get it off my chest