21weeks and 4days

We lost our twin girls at 21weeks and 4days. We were so close to the viability stage. I just don’t understand why they were taken so soon. All we needed was 2 more weeks and they could have survived. Instead my body got some kind of infection and could not fight it off. Maizie died in the womb and Millie lived for an hour. I couldn’t believe how tiny they were. Maizie looked like her momma and Millie looked like little brother. They were absolutely beautiful. This will get easier right? Cause right now I’m absolutely numb. I don’t want to see anyone or talk to anyone. And I’m really tired of hearing “they’re in a better place”, “god has them now”, etc blah blah blah. They were supposed to be with us! I did everything I was told to do and yet it was for nothing!😭😭 I just want my babies back.