Struggling

I am 8 weeks 5 days, I havent been able to eat anything really since I was about 6 weeks, maybe a little less. I have hyperemesis gravidarum, I've lost 8 pounds in the last two weeks because I cant keep anything down. Today I was puking straight stomach acid, struggling to stay up right because I'm malnourished and barely have anything in my body but I cant physically keep it down. I even puked up my saltine crackers today which seemed impossible.

On top of it I just feel so bad for my SO. He made a comment about how I dont stay up and wait for him like I used to, or make him breakfast in the mornings like I used to. And I get it, it was the small things that made him feel valued and loved, it's his love language. He understands that I'm physically and mentally exhausted and he always supports me, but it made my heart sink a little. I mean I'm struggling to even shower once a week right now and I know its gross but by the time I get home from work all I want to do is nap, wake up for all of 2 hours, and then sleep again. I dont feel like myself at all, I feel super bad for my SO because he deserves breakfast in the mornings and me being up to greet him, I know it sounds weird but that's how I show my love and how he understands it.

I feel bad for not being able to eat either, even though I know right now the baby is getting the nutrients from my body storages. I just need something to help. I've tried the ginger, I've tried the mint candies, for a while milk helped and now it doesnt. I cant even keep pedialyte down or water anymore. Im just struggling. I want to cry but I'm so dehydrated that its impossible.