I’m on my period right now (finished in one more day)- and he and I have had sex on it before or I’ve given him oral.

But last night I couldn’t sleep so I stayed still looking around our room in complete darkness. I’m somewhat on my back and side against my man who’s back is facing me. Suddenly, I feel and hear him take his shorts off- I’m thinking fuck yes he wants to have sex ( I expected because it happens often where he wakes me up at odd hours to fuck)- I’ve been horny since we last had sex which was 5-6 days now-But I lay there waiting... I feel his hand go up and down fast then slow- I sit up and ask him in annoyance and frustration, “what are you doing?” His response was that he was scratching. What a liar- scratching would be more side to side and I would hear his nails against his skin. “Were you masturbating?”

Him: “No I was scratching and so what if I was? You’re right here , it’s not like I’m out doing it somewhere, and even if I was then you should have participated”

I replied, “ exactly I am right here, why didn’t you just turn to me. And had sex with me?”

We stopped talking for a while. Then he turns to lay on his belly “ what’s wrong that I do it - you masturbate too when I’m not here”

Which is a lie because I don’t masturbate when he’s not around I let my tension build up so when I have him I really have him. I kind of see why he would say that because of the pictures I’ve sent him but i told him that i never really play with myself, it’s only for the pictures because he asks for them! As I said that he told me to shut up.

Anyways I didn’t let him touch me all night. If his toe touched me I would move until I was at the end of the bed. I even put a pillow between us.

I’m just bothered and feel disrespected to the point the thought that i don’t satisfy him crossed my mind. We are 35 years apart. Im 20 he is 55.