Oh my mother.

My mom doesn't let me be excited about being pregnant. I try to excited to her about the baby we tried for 7 months to make. Im excited for the ups and downs. Im excited for the good and bad. Im sure once pregnancy gets hard i wont like it at the time but i want it. Every time i talk about it she just makes it out to be a burden. She tries to make it seem like its a mistake (without saying it directly). Im so sick of it.

Im doing this shit right! Im living comfortably! Im married! aaaannd i live in another country.. I just noticed it recently but she has acted this way my entire life. I've wanted babies since i was a baby. Every time i babysat or talked about babies in the future she would make it into something bad. Like saying i wouldn't be able to live my life after it comes.

Recently she's been saying to me that my life is ending... wtf. I want this baby. My life is just beginning. I don't see this baby as a burden. Me and my husband have so much love that we can't wait to share it with baby. Be excited with me or keep your opinions to yourself. Let me be happy and excited!

(unrelated) It just seems like my whole family don't want me to be happy. Half of them think that way cuz they're racist bastards. Can't wait to see the look on their faces when they find out im pregnant. 😏

My mom made it sound like she was planning on being in the country when i have the baby like she wanted to be in the room when i have it but the thought of my mom in the room makes me cringe. My husband wants his mom in the room cuz he doesn't want to hurt her feelings and i don't know.. me and her didn't get along in the beginning but now i don't care. We get on ok now. I don't want it to be a thing and i know its going to be a thing. I don't have anything against my mil anymore but i just want the birth to be me and my husband. Don't really know how im gna break it to her. Hope she takes it good. Lol the point of this was to show how i feel about my own mother vs mil. My mom makes me cringe and mil i just wanna break the news gently.

I don't know if this shit i wrote makes sense but i just had to get it out there. 😅😉