I was with my boyfriend and opened his phone when he got a notification from a mutual friend. I was curious what they had been talking about as I had no context. Thinking nothing of it, I scrolled up a bit to read what he had said. BIG MISTAKE. I found pictures of other girls from several months back (saved on snapchat so I didn’t have to scroll up far at all). And they were full on nudes. Vagina pics, ass pics, full naked bodies. And get this: not only did he ASK for them from our (guy) friend, but he asked for them THE DAY I CAME HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL AFTER OUR SON WAS BORN. I don’t know what to do and I feel so sick about this I just want to cry. He told me that I was enough for him but I don’t feel like I am anymore, especially with my postpartum body. I love him so much and I don’t want to lose him over this (both for my sake and especially the sake of my son), but I don’t know what to do. I feel so completely broken and helpless and I can’t get the damn pictures out of my head. I just wish that I was able to be enough for him 😕.

He was NEVER the fuckboy type, even before we started dating, and I never thought he would be this kind of person but now I don’t know what to think. He tried making it up to me with ice cream, flowers, and a walk up to my favorite place to watch the sunset but I can’t even look at him the same way anymore. And what hurts the most is that if I do leave him (which i may have already done had it not been for our 4 month old son) then it’ll only be harder on me because I would have to raise our son mostly on my own.

I have no idea what to do.