On January 19, 2018 my husband and I found out I was pregnant. We were over the moon! In those first few weeks we made so many plans. So maybe dreams we had for our little baby. Unfortunately it was cut short. A month later we lost our little baby. It completely crushed me. I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. But I picked up to pieces and we tried again.

Only 3 months later in May my husband and I got another positive test! We couldn't believe it. We were so happy. We were shocked it happened so fast! This time we had even less time with our little one.

I went into a pretty bad depression. Then in June 2018 I lost my best friend of 15 years. I felt crippled like I couldn't go on.

Then July 14, 2018 I saw that beautiful positive test again. I was scared and overwhelmed. I was so afraid of losing another baby. I was scared to let myself be happy. Then the first month past then the next. I slowly let myself enjoy my pregnancy. Now I have a beautiful baby girl who is the most amazing little human on the planet. It was a long road to get here but we're here. I'm so blessed.

After my losses I would read this poem over and over. It hurt reading but helped me at the same time.

Only a few weeks I had those little babies in me but they made a huge impact on my life. I will love and miss them forever ❤️😔