What do I do 😔😔

Karmen • Met 8/18/15. Dating 9/7/15. Engaged 11/6/15. Married 5/21/16. Baby #1 11/27/16. Baby #2 Due 11/23/20

Took a test Sunday, day before period expected, negative. No period Monday. No period Tuesday. Took a test about an hour ago. Negative. Been trying for fourteen months to have our second baby. Fourteen months of pure hell and disappointment. Fourteen months of money wasted on pregnancy tests. Fourteen months of money wasted on ways to try to boost fertility such as preseed, which didn't work by the way. I am so discouraged. I feel absolutely broken. I don't know what to do anymore. Especially since I have food aversions, I've felt sick for two weeks. It's all so disheartening.