Little rant

Julianna

I got pregnant when i was my last month of being 17. I turned 18 on March 11th, and I hid my pregnancy from my family until I was about 4 months. I was so scared of what my dad, being in the military for 25 years, was going to say or do. I was planning to move out because I really thought I was going to be kicked out and on my own. I told my mom first, she was so disappointed but she wasn’t as angry as I thought she was going to be because I was already as far along as I was. I didn’t tell my dad until 3 weeks after I told my mom. Well, she ended up saying it because I sat there mute in front of him staring at the ground with tears in my eyes lol. All he kept saying while I sat there quiet for 15 minutes was, “it better not be my biggest fear, it better not be what I think it is.” I was more upset with myself because i’m the 4/5 child and i’m the last girl, so I’m his baby and disappointing him the way I did broke my heart. He took it really hard and hurt in silence, but he never called me out of my name or said anything hurtful to me. He asked me what my plans were. I told him that me and Alex, my boyfriend, were going to move in with my sister because she offered and we were going to get married before he left for bootcamp so I got those insurance benefits and the extra money. My dad said no and insisted that if I stay here, I do not have to pay rent, he pays for my car, and he mainly just wanted to make sure I was eating properly and taking care of myself the way I needed to be taken care of. He said I needed my mom more than anything in the world right now and that it’s best for me to stay here. I was really hesitant but i’m glad I stayed here. Everything is falling into place and I have everything I could possibly need. My baby has family on both sides who are extremely excited for him and love him so much and we are all counting down the days until he’s here. Being 18 and a mom definitely will have it’s obstacles, but this has matured me and I am so ready to be a mommy to my beautiful baby boy. I will be without my boyfriend from Dec. 17- April 2020, but it will all be worth it in the end once we are all back together. I have the best and most supportive family anybody could ever ask for.