why am i like this

i got back with my boyfriend over a year ago because we really did love each other & i know in my heart he’s the love of my life & our relationship has been so amazing since we got back together

but

when we where broken up or course after time i dated & i met this guy & oh this guy he was so nurturing & understanding & loving & just everything what my boyfriend never was before & i fell for him hard & we dated for a good while but long story short we stopped talking because my boyfriend came back to my life & we patched things up

& now this guy has been on my mind so hard & i want to message him & just see him but i’m happy with my boyfriend & i know it would be soooo wrong & my heads just saying just contact him your boyfriend won’t know

i know i shouldn’t but i need help to make me realize it’s wrong :/

plus i have no idea why he’s been on my mind so much lately