Anyone else have a hard time crying?

I’m going through an entire heartbreak and other bad things, and I can’t cry. I feel like I’d feel so much better if I just cried my fucking eyes out but I can’t even shed a tear. I try listening to music that fits my sad situations even lol and it’s just pain inside me. I’ve gone through a lot of shit in my life maybe that’s why I can’t. Anyone else relate? And any suggestions how to get out my emotions in a healthy way? (I can’t afford a therapist)