I have an aunt and uncle who live in Virginia. I live in Michigan. We see them a few times a year. I’m very close with them. But I have a love hate relationship with visiting them because I love visiting and I hate leaving. I’ve been in Virginia since Thursday afternoon. My aunt got promoted to colonel in the army and I’m beyond happy for her. But I’m sitting here in the bathroom crying because I have to leave this afternoon. I don’t get enough time with them. Especially since my uncle has taken over the role of my father. But then also I hate family gatherings because I just feel so alone. I’m barely talked to. My heart just hurts right now because I don’t want to go home but I also do because my dog is there waiting for me. I hate this. I hate how they live so far away. The only family members who I feel like actually love and appreciate me are all too far to see more than a few times a year. I’m just so sad.

I feel so stupid I’m an 18 year old in college and I’m sitting in a bathroom crying because I don’t want them to see me crying.

And all of this just brings up the daddy issues I have. My dad doesn’t even love me. Idk what to do anymore