Every month it gets depressing. I’ve been trying to conceive for almost 3.5 years. I know there’s many people take a longer time like 5+ years.

It just comes to a heartbreaking moment that makes me want to give up and throw my towel away.

Countless of times people tell me to let it happen and it’ll happen. I haven’t had <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> or any medical usage to increase my chances of getting pregnant. It sometimes gets depressing seeing so many people on glow try for at 6 months or 1 1/2 years and get pregnant. I’m just struggling almost 4 years.

It just starts making me feel vulnerable and just don’t want to try or even look forward to having a rainbow baby.

It doesn’t make it any better since my menstrual cycle has been acting weird like being late a week or 18 days. I just wish it was easy for me to get pregnant like compared to everyone else.