I'm out again this month. I feel like we didn't even really try, and I don't know if it's me giving up more or my fiance. It's probably for the best considering I don't even make enough money to pay my bills anymore and struggling to find a job... there's no way I could afford a baby. But it still hurts that it hasn't happened yet. My fiance chews dip and is 13 years older than me, and I wonder if he can even get me pregnant to begin with. I get regular periods so I don't think it's me. I know others have it worse, but TTC is just causing too much stress in my life. It's too hard. I have nobody to vent to other than on here, and I wish I had friends to talk about this with.

Maybe some day I'll have excitement instead of horrible cramps, but I just don't think it's going to happen.

Here's to 6 months.