Today would have been my due date if my pregnancy from Jan hadn't miscarried in March. One more reminder of how this 3.5 year journey has brought us nothing but pain and sadness while everyone else around us gets to have 1st, 2nd, and 3rd children without any trouble at all. This time of year is already hard for me because I keep thinking about all of the different holidays and how I'm supposed to be celebrating them with my 2yr old daughter but yet I'm not bc I lost her too.