Giving up....

Michele

I think I’m out this month. CD15 (32 day cycle) with no dominant follicles. I supposedly had one of CD 10 but they couldn’t see it today. I have triple lining but idk what that means. Doubling my gonal f from 12.5 to 25 and really they should have done that after the first scan. CD 17 I have bloods (e2, p4, lh), then another scan cd 19!which seems way too late. I called to double check but I don’t believe them. Maybe I’m not meant to have kids. My stepsons are 16 and 18 (I’m 28 my husband is 49), I have a brand new niece and a 3 year old nephew. Idk if it’s worth trying. I can’t keep feeling let down all the time I’d rather just accept feeling the emptiness of never having children than getting my hopes up every month then not being able to get out of bed for days afterwards. I can’t do this....