I guess nobody is looking for me. Nobody wondered if I’m okay and why I missed school. I guess I anyway was invisible at school, nobody notices if I’m there or not. The thing with me is that such little details are important to me. I don’t need the attention, and I know that’s what is conveyed through my post. Today not only I’ve been vomiting all morning, I also clarified the fact that my only real friends are my family. Friends care for each other. I don’t feel respected at all. When we hang out I’m always in the background, they always show me their back and never talk to me. Whenever I talk they don’t pay attention and if they do, whatever I say is either irrelevant or wrong. I guess they only use me because I’m the only one from them that drives and has a 5 seated car in which they’ll never enter again. I’ve had enough being used all the time just because I’m the kindest. I’ll set my boundaries and become the bad one if that’s what they want. And I need no friends. I can be alone as I always were.