I'm writing this to you because I need to get this off my chest. Why was I not good enough for you? Was your new family really better? I have had to grow up with a basically absent father. You came to my graduation, good job. You showed up for once in your life but you're back to ghost. Is it that hard to pick up a phone? The reason I didn't answer when you said you were coming to my graduation is because I blocked you. I was so hurt that you didn't even bother to call me for Christmas. You can't even call your own mother either. Excuse after excuse. Your phone broke, use your work phone, use a land line or your house phone or borrow someone's phone. It's really not that hard.

Take responsibility for the lives you have created. Be a man. When I get married and have kids, you won't be there. Because you didn't even try to be my dad. You try to get me taken away from my mother, for what? What would that accomplish? Taking your daughter away from the only parent who loves her. My mother may not be perfect but she worked her ass off to make sure me and my brother had a good life. She still does. You know Matthews just like you. Walks all over her, despite her helping him all the time. Unlike you. You have never helped him ever. Granted he shouldn't be asking, he should try harder to be successful. He's your clone.

You're so cheap. Always telling me that I only want to be around Mary because she buys me things. I want to be around her because she actually loves me. I read a text where you accused my mom of using the child support money for herself. She never did. But sometimes you should buy me school supplies because that is what a good father does. My mom has spent so much money on me. If you weren't legally supposed to send her money you wouldn't ever had bought me one pencil.

I heard what you said about my grandparents being too old to take care of us. They took excellent care of us. Want to know why? Because my mom had to work 24/7 to put food on our table, clothes on our back, a roof over our heads and an education. Don't you ever talk about my family like that ever again. They raised me more than my own father did.

I lost my father 3 years ago when my grandpa died. But then I gained one again in my uncle. Don't you dare accuse my mom of telling me to write this. This is what I have been feeling my entire life but I've just never told you. I frankly don't care if I'm talking to you disrespectfully. What's disrespectful is how you treat my mom, my family and even your own wife. Cunt, nut job, crazy bitch. You called her all of those things infront of me and my autistic brother. Oh! Speaking of Zach. He's afraid of you. Because you always yell at him. Judge my moms parenting skills? Look at your own.

You act so harsh towards Zach but yell at me when I call him annoying. You manhandle him and scream at him. You think my moms a bad person? Look at yourself. He has mental issues he can't control half the stuff he does but you treat him like that. I love how he flourished once you were out of the picture. You are a cheater. You're an abuser. Mentally and physically. I heard what you did to Mary when Melissa was living there. she told me you threw her on the ground and choked her. I don't care if any of this crap is none of my business. I'm just showing you what kind of a person you are. Holding a mirror up for you. You are the reason my mom and I have an on and off relationship. You hurt her. You made her an angry person. You cheated on her. I think you even hit her, but she won't tell me because she wants to protect me. She doesn't want me to hate you. But it's too late. And then there is me. You gave me depression and anxiety. I've had it since 8th grade and probably even earlier than that. I ended up in the hospital because of it. I think you should pay my mom child support until I am 21. Without her taking you to court, which by the way she isn't even planning to do because she doesn't think it's worth it. But I think it's the least you can do after the pain you've caused us. My mother is a hard working woman who would do anything for her kids.

Yet you can't even send me a text. My mom has been a mom and a dad. And you've done nothing. Gifts mean nothing to me. I want a dad who loves me. You can't even ask me how college is, or offer to help me with college or help me buy my books or anything. My mom did all of that but she's such a horrible person right? She spent almost $2,000 on my college and almost $6,000 on a car for me and she's going to be paying butt loads of money for the insurance on it. BECAUSE SHE LOVES ME. And you accuse her of using your child support to take us on vacations. No. SHE WORKS SO HARD TO MAKE HER OWN MONEY. She earns every penny to take us on vacations and to buy us cool things during it. Maybe you should try to take me somewhere nice. Oh wait you never take me outside of Virginia. You will not be in my life until you prove yourself as a father to me.

You have 3 kids but you don't know how to be a father to any of them. Every time I visited you always figured out a way to make me cry. I can't even call you dad anymore. You never try to talk to me unless it's a holiday or my birthday. Oh also. You are supposed to tell either me or my mother if there are any changes to my insurance. I've lost all respect for you. Also I love how you don’t talk to me anymore because you don’t legally have to. I ask you to do something for me. I want my military ID it’s MINE. I asked you nicely to send it but now I have to be aggressive. You probably have me blocked though lol. That's how much you love me right? Thank you for not being my dad. Goodbye.