I’m so upset with you I could scream. Prior to us getting hitched I was single for a few years while you were in a “steady relationship” after being married for a few months while I was pregnant with our child I come up positive for genital herpes. I didn’t want to believe it came from you, I kept racking my brain to “blame” it on myself and who would have given it to me. I had my first outbreak and it was miserable physically and mentally. You stayed strong though never placing any blame and telling me it was okay.

After extensive research about this I keep reading that you most likely have your first out break within 2-21 days of being infected and I’ve also heard that it can lie silent for years. You recently got your first outbreak after me being super careful about it for the past year. You said nothing to me until DAYS later; leading me to believe you had it first and never admitted it to me. When I asked to see your breakout you denied me. I have this gut feeling that this isn’t your first lesion. I want to scream, cry and punch the wall....I pray you didn’t really give this to me I wish this never happened to me. I feel like we won’t even last and now I’ll have to tell the next person that I have genital herpes and I don’t know EXACTLY who gave it to me. I’m furious that I have to deal with this after being careful when I was single.

All my fucking best,

Your first wife.