Nervous about staying home

Nicki • 👶🏼

We are expecting our first baby at the end of December, and my last day of work is November 8. I am very nervous about a couple things, and I’m just wondering if any other mamas had the same feelings and their experience or how they overcame them.

My first fear is we will be dirt poor. My husband has a great job with great benefits, and I did do the bills and everything to see if we would be ok, and we should be. We will have money left over to spend, but I am still terrified. I don’t like change, and me not contributing makes me sad and feel useless.

Second, I have a fear he will never help me because I am home and he is working. He never has given me a reason to think this. Yes, I understand cleaning, laundry, feedings in the middle of the night, etc will be my main priorities as he will be gone and I’ll be home. BUT it is still a lot being a mom, housekeeper, and everything else in life. So I’m afraid he will never help me when I need it or need a break.

Is he going to be mean if I buy myself a top or pair of pants even though I’m not bringing in any money? Obviously I won’t be doing shopping sprees weekly or monthly or anything like that, but what if I actually need something like nursing bras or underwear?

Those are my biggest fears and I just wonder what your experiences were or anything. I know these sound dramatic but I’m just nervous. Like I said change isn’t my thing.