I think I’ve reached a point to where I’m done trying if I’m not pregnant this cycle. This is our 12th one. I’m currently 9dpo and I’m already feeling like I’m out. I just feel like it’s the same thing every month.. hopes are high and I hold onto this idea that it’s our month and it’s going to happen, just to be let down. My daughter is 2 and we got pregnant with her FIRST TRY. Why is it so hard now? 3 months into trying for #2 we got pregnant again but I miscarried 1 week after we found out. Nothing since. It’s so disappointing. The only thing that’s different this cycle that has me holding on to a tiny thread of hope is that I’m experiencing hardly any symptoms besides LOTS of snotty creamy cm and exhaustion. Previous cycles I was loaded with pregnancy symptoms but no pregnancy.. maybe this is good? Or maybe it’ll never happen again and I’m just doomed. 🤷🏼‍♀️ I’m just so done at this point. All of my energy has gone to this for an entire year!! Ughhh!!! I keep testing too and I don’t know why!! Wtf is the point 🙄 I know it’s too early for the majority of women but I just want this so bad! I want my little girl to have a sibling 😭 I want them close in age! This just sucks!! I didn’t realize this would be so hard. If you made it this far, thanks for reading my rant. I hope everyone gets their bfp soon because trying every month with nothing to show for it freaking SUCKS BALLS! Heres my chart to show what I’m currently obsessing over. Even though I know I shouldn’t. 🤦🏼‍♀️