I know there are so many of you that have had numerous losses, many wishing to even ever had a positive, and so many that wish that their babes were still with us all.

I feel for all of you.

I'm sunk down in the middle of the 'I just got my period' slump of sadness, and I just want to fucking scream.

I'm so ready to give up.

I've started eating healthier, I've started exercising, temping every damn morning, timed baby dances as they should go, even on our most tired of days.

My husband already has 2 children and doesn't understand why I get like this. He has no idea what this is like.

I just want to give up.

I just need to accept that at 33 with a skewed history of infertility and losses, this just isn't going to happen.