I feel so alone more then I ever have In my life I cry myself to sleep every night some nights me and my fiancé don’t sleep in the same bed together. I’m 15 weeks pregnant and he says he’s excited but I’m the only one who’s paid for ultrasounds and bought baby stuff and posted about the baby and he doesn’t even seem to care. He has a kid with his ex wife so this isn’t his first but every worry and concern I have he doesn’t care when I cry he doesn’t care everytime I try to say something we fight and I just I can’t take it anymore. I do think about suicide all the time but I don’t want to hurt my baby. Iv wanted to be a mom for so long and now I feel like such a bad person. I finally got what I wanted I’m supposed to be so happy and I wanna kill myself. I don’t wanna be here I just want it all to be over with I’m tired of fighting and feeling unloved and feeling alone. I love my baby but I don’t even know if that’s enough.