It's just so sad, so painful. Years of trying, you become so in tune with your body that you're trying so hard to notice some change anything. A twinge of pain and you wonder if this could be it, the implantation moment the moment that will bring you that BFP! And then your body betrays you and AF shows up, you hope by now you'd be used to it but sadly the pain is too much. You wonder what you need to do? What are you doing wrong? Should we keep trying? Your body and soul are exhausted and all you can do is cry.

It's hard to pray, hard to support friends and family when they have baby showers because you can't keep up the facade. You don't know how to answer the questions anymore.

It hurts, I feel broken. It's been 5 years