Silently Freaking Out

In July I found out in was pregnant, then at 6 weeks it was gone. Just gone didn't feel pregnant anymore and there was a mess and it was a miscarriage, I was just plain okay with it. We have been trying since then to become pregnant. Well yesterday at 6 weeks and 2 days I tell my husband were pregnant! This morning I start to spot... bright red and more then I believe is normal. It feels like it is happening all over again. I'm pretty strong minded and understand sometimes it just isn't ment to be. But to do this all over again, so soon might break my husband... and even me a little. He's so much more excited them I am (I have a 10yr, from a previous relationship) it will be his "first" kid. But just as I get on board this scary spotting happens. Everyone is gone today, and I'm just home alone freaking out...

I know whatever is going to happen, it happens for a reason. I just wanted to share and let anyone know that even if they feel alone they are not. Positive Vibes to all!