I’ve had an abortion before. And i need to have another, i can not provide or safely deliver this child. However i am so scared for some reason. My last one was done quickly. Found out at 7 weeks got it at 8 weeks. Felt like a normal period to me. I’m now 9 weeks and 2 days. Missed going on 2 periods now. I can not stand the changes in my body, the sickness, but i am postponing it nonstop because i am terrified. I had a surgery recently on my vagina for a bartholin cyst. That’s already 5-6 people staring at my vagina and i am just sick of it. I don’t even want it anymore. Take it all out I’m so fed up.

Ugh, i just needed to vent that.