Currently 5w4d with rainbow baby just after my baby passed I was 14wks

Family member found out she was pregnant too she avoided me after she found out and hasnt spoke to me since but has been posting pictures and videos and scans etc on social media only SO and myself know im pregnant no one else going to wait until we feel ready as we are too afraid to announce it after last time, but it upsets me about the family member it hurt a lot more when I found it hard to get pregnant again and now that I am i thought it would be different it is a little bit easier but doesnt help, i know life goes on blah blah blah but everyone has forgotten about my baby and even me no one bothers to meet up they always cancel no one replies or even bothers to contact me everyone is so obsessed with her being pregnant when i got a lot of criticism over mine and shes younger than me! I try so hard to put it to the back of my mind but it kills me everytime I go on social media have deleted my fb to stop it hurting me but now afraid if i lose this one it might kill me right off anyone any tips or experience that might ease my mind 😫🙌👼🌈 i am truly blessed with this pregnancy honestly so grateful but too afraid to attach myself in case of being heartbroken again 💗💗