I want to be pregnant but I’m so beyond terrified of pregnancy! Is this normal??? Am I ready???

Of feeling sick during pregnancy, of having a horrible labor and delivery, of every nightmarish thing that could go wrong.

Every month as we approach my fertile week I start to get so anxious. To the point of going into panic attacks and feeling sick... thus making myself even more terrified of pregnancy.

But THEN as soon as my fertile week ends I find myself praying for a positive and feeling my heart sink when it’s not.

Part of me says if I’m this anxious I’m not ready. But then the other part of me is feeling like I’ll probably never stop being anxious about this so why am I waiting.

Help 😖