Emotions about losing my baby

So back in July I went into early labor and lost my daughter at 21 weeks.

October 5th should have been my baby shower, today I would have been 35 weeks.

My husbands cousin is pregnant now I believe about 17 weeks now. I was due Dec 6th bur was told they were going to induce me early at the end of this month.

With the holidays coming up and being around her while she has her belly ... I don’t know how to feel.

At first I was really happy for her when she told the family she was pregnant. She had an early miscarriage prior , I had had 2 before my daughter so I knew the excitement.

But now that she’s getting further and will have the belly .. along with being around the time I would have had my daughter I’m just not sure how to cope.

I seemed to be doing ok emotionally for the last 2 months but now getting closer to the due date I’m starting to have a hard time again.

Other than therapy what does everyone recommend?