AHH PANICK

So before everyone tells me to call or go to the doctor before I’m able to see the doctor that takes my insurance I have to sign a bunch of papers being mailed to me. So I’m trying to prepare myself with the results. I’ve looked all around the web and can’t find anything that looks like this. Whether it be razor burn, HPV, herpes I’m not sure. But I know I’m not the first person to have this issue I just need help I feel like my love life, future family dream is crushed. No one wants to be with someone who has a life long problem and can transfer it to them. If you’re wondering how I possibly got it. The man I’ve been with for ever has noticed these break outs on him as well and hid it from me. He never went to the doctor and found it on our search history that he looked it up and doesn’t care a bit that he has given it to me. I just want some opinions about the medical condition there appears to be.