My boyfriend and I have been together for 6 years now. We met when I was 19 and at the time he was 17. A few months into our relationship I discovered he had been cheating. I confronted him about it and he said he wouldn’t do it again but he did. As our relationship went on he cheated more and more until he finally contracted something and passed it on to me. Initially I found out he had been cheating because I went to the doctor and was told I had contracted something. Once again he said it would never happen again but of course it did. Deep down I knew I should have left then but it was almost as if the damage was already done. I use to tell me how he loved woman with short hair so early on in our relationship I cut my hair for him. I told him I loved him pretty soon but it wasn’t until I cut my hair for him that he says he knew for sure that he loved me to because he says he saw I would do anything for him. He use to be so good at making me feel sexy and beautiful. When we first met I was close to 200 pounds now I’m 180 something but still feel so insecure. Whenever I wear close that are revealing he talks about my outfit nonstop until I finally feel bad enough and change or put on a hoodie to cover up. He’s never had to put his hands on me because he can just say the smallest thing and it will hurt far worse. He’s not the type to apologize first or at all if he can avoid it. Even when we had issues in our relationship and I want to work through them he just ignores it and says there’s no issue. I can go on and on about what he’s doing wrong or how he’s hurt me and all he’ll do is remind me of how he hasn’t cheated on me in a year and is trying his best to give me what I’m asking for. Just a week ago I was upset that I’m constantly doing all the talking and that his communication skills suck..and all he says is he doesn’t like being forced to talk about things. So when there’s an issue we don’t talk. We’re LD right now for the next year and apart of me wants to leave but I’m so afraid to. He’s messed my head up in ways I never even thought were possible. I just wish I had someone to talk to so this didn’t feel so lonely.