The breakup

After me and my bf broke up of almost 2 years.... I couldn’t get myself back. I still feel like I haven’t fully recovered. When he left me for some other girl, he had lied and acted like he wasn’t going to go to someone else (even tho I saw them hugging etc) and he had not only done that but turned everyone against me at school. He had been so toxic to me in the relationship but I loved him too much to leave. When he left me I didn’t eat well for a few weeks my depression and anxiety had gone up and I was always having a stomach ache. I needed to find myself again. I lost more than 10 friends just because they thought he was better and wanted to hang with him. Obviously I didn’t support my ex bsfs hanging with my ex who literally was a phsyco. So instead they left me, and yes I found better friends but I still see this ex at school constantly. And I’ve learned to see how amazing I am on my own, or with more people but I still need some tips from you guys to get back to my healthy mental state where I don’t have horrible mood swings because of my ex. For example he will talk to my ex friend and then be all touchy to make me upset, how do I correct that mindset and move on to keep going with my journey to love myself??

Thank you

Victoria