My son suddenly passed away in his sleep at 9.5 months. I was at work while it happened and really struggling that I wasn't there. I feel dead inside and am having trouble even focusing on my other children right now. It's been 2 weeks and my job is bothering me to come back but I don't feel ready. They are paying me while I am out right now and have been amazingly supportive but I feel like 2 weeks in not enough after loosing a child I had 9.5 months to care for and taken suddenly.