How do I deal with this insecurity with my SO?

So, I know he watches porn. I know what he’s into...i think.

He loves big asses, huge breasts, and girls with a skinny waist. Thing is, I look absolutely nothing like those women. I have a little butt, average breasts, and I am definitely not toned and don’t have a skinny waist. I’m as average as a girl can be.

And it sucks that it bugs me that he is fantasizing and drooling over those types of women when I look nothing like them. Not even a little.

It makes me wonder if he actually finds me attractive? More than those women he fantasizes about? If at all?

He’s not good at complimenting me. He hardly ever does. And even on days where I try and look decent and cute, he says nothing. I’ve talked to him about this before because I know my love language is words of affirmation and quality time.

He says that he thinks all of those things when he sees me, but he just never says them out loud. He didn’t have a reason why. He just doesn’t. I’ve asked him to try, but it doesn’t last long. And if he does, the only words he’ll use are “cute” and “pretty.” Ive never heard him call me things like “beautiful” “gorgeous” “sexy” or “hot.” Not on his own, not with a push from me.

Don’t get me wrong, I love the physical and stuff, but I don’t feel 100% loved that way only. I’ve told him this as well. His love language is definitely physical, he has a high sex drive.

We don’t even sext anymore like we used to. I loved sending him sexy photos and nudes and getting them in return. But, he just doesn’t ask for them anymore or even really hint at it. And if I do send him some out of the blue he just kind of replies with “mff quit.” And that’s pretty much it. Still, no compliments or much of anything.

I even find myself getting so caught up in if he’s enjoying himself or likes what he sees when we have sex, that it’s hard for me to get off. And sometimes I don’t, but I never tell him.

What do I do?