Whoa is me. Everyone and the world is against me. How dumb do I sound. Right? But I actually feel this way and I hate it here. I hate my life right now.

I haven’t been in this dark place in awhile and it came slowly and hit me hard.

My job, coworkers, family, bf, car, apartment, MYSELF.. I hate it all. (You’d think I’d be grateful for all this shit right?) Notice I didn’t say friends because I don’t have any. My bf isn’t even my friend right now honestly. He doesn’t want to be around me. He’d actually rather be with my brothers right now while I’m sitting here sobbing with our toddler asleep in the room. Shitty right? Fucking family. Fucking man. Fuck me.

I’m clinging to the thought of my daughter right now. She needs me. She’s sweet, innocent, spunky and has nothing to do with these feelings. She’s saving me right now because I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to be here. I want these feelings and tears to stop. I want to feel valued.