Ok this is the hardest thing I’ve had to talk about, but the past month I’ve really started to open my eyes and see things I didn’t see before. I’ve really started to look through this past year and I’m very disappointed. I have been dealing with the worst case of depression I’ve ever dealt with. and I never really wanted to see it until now.. I lost interest in being alive and everything was just a huge mess. there were days I ate once to nothing at all because In my head I felt I was taking away from my family even when they were full and despite what everyone was telling me I still thought I felt fat. I just couldn’t see the truth until recently. I’ve been talking to professional help the last couple of days and they have really helped me understand things more. They are also helping me deal with Anorexia and have given me a couple things to help me gain weight again and help me Mentally and physically.. Please I DO NOT want anyone to feel sorry for me. I just really want to post this because I feel it will help me.