I need Feedback y’all :) Is it possible to not have an attachment to your first time?

For the longest time was afraid of having sex and I finally was comfortable enough with myself sexually and was ready to be physical with someone.

At 26 I have finally done the deed. But I chose a warm body not someone I had any connection with other than physically we thought the other was hot and this man has one sexy ass smile.

Anyways I hooked up he was cool-ish about my situation (I didn’t tell him before hand cause I didn’t want him to back out and say no) when realizing he wasn’t mad just surprised he told me we are gonna talk about this when we are finished ‘young lady’ (he’s 13 years older). He kept going became more gentle and just made

me feel good.

Anyways I have returned to the same warm body since (was that a mistake)? Lol

Because now I’m feeling some type of wayyyy ... I’m not jealous he hooks up with plenty of girls ... I’m sure of it. That doesn’t bother me but I wanna be one of the girls under, on him, bent over in front of him 😂 am I obsessed with the man or the vitamin D?