Baby #3?

Sooo... last week I posted about a pregnancy "scare". I thought I had a positive test but it wasn't. Well, idk what changed, but now I'm really wanting to try for baby number 3. I didn't think I was ready for it.... but idk. I started really thinking about it. Technically it would be baby #2 but I have a stepdaughter (6) whose mom died of a drug overdose when she was 2. I consider her my daughter. This will be our third child in the family to put it that way. I'm just scared 3 is a lot. But at the same time like only physically giving birth to one wasn't enough for me. I want to have another of my own. :/ I hope that doesn't sound wrong. Any moms with 3 kids or considering 3? My other daughter is 2.

I should add my husband wants to wait a year, but I'll be almost 30, and me personally, I just don't want to have kids in my 30s. Sounds weird and NOTHING against a women that is pregnant in her 30s. But I just want to be done by then... I don't have any reason specifically why, it's just what my plan was. But I get our life plans don't always go the way we want them too haha