My partner has always watched porn, never had a problem with it when I cannot be arsed to satisfy him. (He only watches it when we haven’t had sex or any intimacy in a while) I don’t like doing it all the time..

especially since being pregnant🤦🏼‍♀️ I’m 9 months pregnant, due in 19 days. We haven’t had sex in about 2 weeks, I was getting ready for bed last night and he started touching me kissing me telling me how “sexy” I looked. Lmao he hasn’t said anything like that or even touched me in weeks.. so I thought you must be feeling guilty or something, I had a feeling something wasn’t right.

When he went to the bathroom I quickly checked his phone (because it was screen down) and I found that suspicious as well. Anyway he had been watching porn (again, not bothered) BUT he had searched in the category “PERFECT BODY” WTF! He never searches in any category, he always just watches the “popular” videos. Before I got pregnant I was a size 8 with a thin waist, NO stretch marks and now I’m absolutely covered in stretch marks everywhere, have a huuuge bump, loads of water retention so my body is pretty much swollen. I feel so so upset and hurt he actually typed in “perfect body” because what is the perfect body?😢🤷🏼‍♀️ do I have the right to be upset? Is it just my hormones? I’m so offended. And so self conscious now.

**update**

I haven’t spoken to him about it because I don’t want him to feel like I have violated his privacy by checking his phone...

I think he may have an incline that I seen it, we were brushing our teeth last night and I said “do you think I’m fat?” He looked shocked and said “no why would you say that? you’re pregnant” I also keep throwing hints like “before I got pregnant I was so slim” he keeps ordering me food lol so I said “no wonder I’m putting more weight on” he said “it’s okay” I tell him it’s not. mmm I don’t know🤷🏼‍♀️

I’m extremely worried about what my post partum body will look like after I’ve had our son, because I’ve heard not everybody’s body goes back to their normal shape straight away and you can get some loose skin, and I have a shit ton of stretch marks...

Suppose it is what it is. I just hope we don’t end up breaking up over my insecurities really.. 🤷🏼‍♀️