My husband is at a wedding. Things are rough between us And we’re never going to get the wedding I had planned. Mainly because we’re getting divorced. I was supposed to go because we’re friends.(yes it weird but we make it work) but work is slammed and I wasn’t able to take off. So he went with his friends which is totally fine. But I’m sitting at the house crying because we won’t ever make it to that point. We had a very small courthouse wedding. I won’t ever get the chance to walk with my dad down the isle. Or have my first dance to the song we picked. Have my friends be my bridesmaids. Or celebrate with our friends. And now I’m currently crying off my makeup I did after work to feel happy because I was already sad. But seeing the videos made it worse. And idk how to cope with it. I normally fine but today had been a rough day all around and everything hit me at once. So idk what to do. I don’t want to ruin his night by calling him. And all my friends are busy at work. So