😞 sad

Guys i never really go anywhere but school and work and today i actually put makeup on and got ready to head to my friends bday dinner & now that I’m looking at the pics i am so sad . I always see myself and i never thought i looked so big until I’m seeing these pictures 😭 I’m so upset i let myself gain so much weight and i can’t stop eating I’m not even hungry half the time but i just eat eat eat . Might be stress eating but still . Never thought i was that big until now , no wonder I’m never comfortable and can’t breathe and hurt so bad it’s my own fault 😭 and i still have 4 weeks to go . Up 45 lbs and everybody else i read hadn’t gained that much it makes me hate myself . I’m over pregnancy