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Guys i never really go anywhere but school and work and today i actually put makeup on and got ready to head to my friends bday dinner & now that Iโ€™m looking at the pics i am so sad . I always see myself and i never thought i looked so big until Iโ€™m seeing these pictures ๐Ÿ˜ญ Iโ€™m so upset i let myself gain so much weight and i canโ€™t stop eating Iโ€™m not even hungry half the time but i just eat eat eat . Might be stress eating but still . Never thought i was that big until now , no wonder Iโ€™m never comfortable and canโ€™t breathe and hurt so bad itโ€™s my own fault ๐Ÿ˜ญ and i still have 4 weeks to go . Up 45 lbs and everybody else i read hadnโ€™t gained that much it makes me hate myself . Iโ€™m over pregnancy