Feeling sad and need to vent

So my husband and I had a miscarriage at 17 weeks back in March it was the most devastated moment of my life. Anyway I suffered the miscarriage due to fibroids, I ended having to have a myomectomy to remove the fibroids in June. My Doctor suggested that I wait 6 months to try again. Which will be in December. I figured I wanted to try for the entire year of 2020. Well my husband told me last night that he was going to Truck driving school and he will be gone the entire year. I told him how it messed up my plans for making a baby I cried. I am already 31 years old I feel like my time is running out. Am I wrong for feeling this way? 😔😭