I dont know what to do.

My baby is almost 6 weeks old and i feel so tired and overwhelmed. Not just because of the usual, new mom/baby thing. Let me tell you why.

My LO was born 7 weeks premature. We were in the hospital for the first month of his life. He had to have neurosurgery as he had some issues. Hes all good now.

During the first month, i basically lived in the hospital. Literally lived there. My husband would come visit every other day or so and stay for a few hours only. On the weekend he'd stay home cause he was tired from work.. or hed sleep in and come to the hospital in the afternoon.

Im not tired? I dont havr to get up every 2.5-3hrs to change and feed him? And pump in between? (He couldnt breastfeed, we do bottles).

He was there the day of his surgery... came to the hospital around 11am... if ot were me i wouldve been there at 8.

The next day he went to pick up his daughter (from another relationship) to spend the day with her.

Sorry.. your son had brain surgery and you3re prioritizing seeing her over being here. And i understand she shouldnt be left out. And she isnt!! I love that little girl... but fuck! Priorities! He just had brain surgery!!! Dont you think he should be here the day after?! To see how he is??

(Yes i send him updates but its not the same).

Then we come home. Its been a week and its been a hard transition. He was used to being swaddled in the hospital to sleep and at home we were told not to do it. He wont sleep otherwise. So i put him in a sleep sack to mimic it.

Anyway, he now wakes every 1.5-3.5hrs... usually around the 2hr mark. To feed or just cause he startles.

Then i change him and feed him and rock him to sleep. And put him down. And pray he sleeps. Then i have to go pump to make more milk for him.

During the day i do the dishes, the laundry (washed and folded, and i iron his pants) i clean the house, i sterlize and prep his bottles. Then i try to cook something prior to him getting home.

If i dont cook anything and ask him to pick something up he gets all kinda disgruntled and says what do you want. And i always have to decide because hes sooooo tired from work. And he never wants what i want but has it anyway then gets upset that he had something he didnt want.

Youd think being the weekend hed help me a little... nope.

I got up with our son during the night.

In the morning i also got up and found him on the couch on his phone.

He didnt ask if he could help.

Then i fed the baby and changed him and put him down but he was cranky and crying.. and i had to pump. I had to sit there pumping listening to him cry because I couldn't pick him up for 20 minutes.

He didnt even come in to check to see if i needed help.

I finished pumping, picked him up and went do prep bottles while holding him.

He was still on the couch.

I finished that and he fell asleep in my arms. I put him down for a sleep and went to clean up the sterlizer.

My husband gets up and says im dizzy. Then i said why? Are you hungry. He said yeah.

Im like well theres eggs. He said okay.

Then went to go back on the couch.

So i guess im making breakfast.

I made it and found him sleeping on the couch.

Im so glad he can get some shut eye. A new born must be so hard on him.

I feel like im a single mom raising a child and a baby all alone.

I have ZERO help. And im so frustrated. I dont even know what to do.

If i ask for help it seems like im inconveniencing him.

Idk what to do...