Random rant:

These pregnancy dreams are killing my emotions.

With my first son's father, we had a very awful toxic relationship (on both sides), we were just not a match for each other and kept trying to force something that never could happen. Anyways, we still did the whole "let's have a baby" "let's get married" thing, and after the "engagement" is when things got so bad, he started cheating and straight up brought a girl to me and said "I'll gonna try with her, sorry I just don't love you" and we parted ways. Honestly didn't even hurt me.

But last night, the father of this child (the person who I swear I was like, meant to run into and be with) proposed to me 🥰

So here's comes the stupid hormones and dreams; I dreamt (and physically felt) everything going wrong all over again. Everything. I woke up bawling my eyes out and tried to stop the tears....

.... So I turned on Disney+ and Disney just made me cry more 😂😭 ugh!!!