Please no judgement

How does one be ok of enjoying knowing you became pregnant and then first time walking into a doctors office for the beginning of the new journey begin to bleed and takes 4 days to have a total miscarriage and all the Hope's and dreams regarding how to tell friends and family then it just all goes to shit. Just been sleeping alot and I know baby boy can feel my emotions. I been fighting with myself regarding it's so soon after just having a baby June 5th. But I was ready. Obgyn cleared us to start asap after delivery. She been helpful with our goals regarding our children. Took a surgery and come tweeking to ttcing to make our 2nd Rainbow baby. Sadly I was almost 7 weeks along and could determine tiny arms and tiny eyes forming.

Its heartbreaking 😭