Sad, confused and just plain over it.

Ive been ttc for 2 years now.. this month was stressful just because of it coming close to the holidays.. anyways, I took a test wednesday and it was A FP so I tested every day after that until today and it was constantly a faint positive never got dark. Today (monday) AF is suppose to come and all Ive had is brown/pink spotting. Im ready to cry and give up at this point.