Im 21 days late. I had one negative and then a slight positive tests. So i made appointment to see whats going on.

I have all kinds Sympotoms of pregnancy. But it has been 10yrs. (my son will be 11 next month)

My SO have been trying for 3 years now. I do have pcos, its hard to conceive.

My doctor gave me a urine test and i sat there by myself, praying and begging, more praying. I literally heard her coming down hall in here high heels. I kept breathing heavy.

She came in room. "its a negative".

I started crying. I told her she was my 3rd doctor that wanted

" my SO and i to try on our own. For 3 years". "we obviously can't, so we need help. Or I'm taking my money elsewhere and finding different doctor."

i said all that with tears and boogers.

So she calmed me down and took a blood test to check just in case iam pregnant my hcg lvls are just not working for urine test. If iam not, she will start me on some fertility drugs.

Im home alone. My SO works at Warehouse so he works late and my son is at his dad. Im so depressed, i really thought i was pregnant. I was having dreams about pregnancy and im still getting symptoms.

Ive been laying in bed crying and crying. Watching tv and more crying. I feel hopeless.