Feeling trapped

I work from home so I’m home all day every day. There’s no differentiation between work hours and family time because I have someone who watches the baby here too. My husband has also been working from home almost every week for the last month or so (it used to be only twice a week that he would stay home). I love him and having baby here too but there are some days that I feel like I’m so close to having a panic attack from being cooped up at home all day. My husband helps me with the baby a lot but he can also be super lazy and would be completely content with watching tv all day and eating junk.

My family lives two + hours away so it’s not like I can call them and have them watch the baby at night so my husband and I can have a date night.

My in-laws live close but we go there often and they help us with our baby once a week already so I’d hate to bother them anymore than I already do.

I don’t have like any friends in the town where we live and it’s tiny so there’s not much of a nightlife here either.

I feel fucking trapped like my life is a broken record, same shit different day in regards to my work life and being home.

I used to smoke CBD before becoming pregnant and I can’t wait to go back to doing it once I’m done breastfeeding. It’s the only way I can let my mind wonder and set my thoughts free